Tuesday, June 03, 2014

Rebirth...

Remember this..? I wasn't certain I did...

It's been three months since my last post, and the hits have kept on coming. I'm not going to lie. To call what I have been going through "depression" really only covers a small percentage of the surface. Thing is, I'm done letting it keep beating me down. I'm done letting it win. I have reached the apex of apathy and I am now saying enough is enough.

It is time to get back to being who I truly am.

One of the first steps to doing that is to get back to a healthy routine, which includes this. Writing, even when I was writing effectively nothing, kept me clear and let me untangle what was in my head. Doing it daily helped keep me focused on things. I have so lost sight of that focus, it's not even in my time zone.

June 3rd, 2014... Day one of rebirth... Day two will be tomorrow... it has to be... I have to make positive progress or I fear I shall not return and all will truly be lost.

Don't wish me luck. In fact, don't wish me anything. I don't need the crutch or the distractions.

To all the haters, obstacles, and problems... GET. IN. THE. RING.

-- GD

12 comments:

  1. The smallest journey begins with a single step. Or Blog post.



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  2. Lets get ready to RUUUMMMBBBLLEEEEE!!!!!

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  3. I won't wish you luck, I'll just say it's good to see you back in the blogosphere

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  4. Just to nitpick. Cause. Well. I dunno.

    It was only 2 months 4 days since your last post.

    Good to see you posting again.

    Good to see the vest and tie again.

    Go Dave.

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    1. Yeah, only 2 months and 4 days from the last post, but how much time has it been between posts, "lately"?

      We are 5/12 of the way through the year, and I have made a whopping 7 posts...

      Comparatively, last year I had made something close to 26 posts at the same point. In 2012, roughly 102 posts... Finally, in 2011, when I started all of this, 170 posts...

      I figured I would slow down... I just didn't figure on almost non-existing... =P

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    2. Yeah. Truth-adjacent.

      Writing, like anything else needs a routine. Sometimes life gets in the way, and the routine gets broken.

      Maybe getting back into the routine will help you to fix your funk.

      What's the saying, "Fake it till you make it." (or, "If you act like you aren't broken, maybe somewhere in the acting, you will actually stop being broken." (not to say that you are broken. Maybe just bent. :)))

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    3. On, no... "broken" would have been a good way to describe me, though I would have more likely gone with "severely bent", as to me, using the word "broken" in regard to mental health means irreparable...

      I wasn't somewhere I couldn't come back from... I *WAS* a great distance off of the right path and standing close to the precipice for a long while before turning around and heading off in a different direction...

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  5. Glad to see you back, Dave.

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